Transfer Day

J is still sleeping, twisted all over the mattress, oblivious that I'm already up and feeling nervous. Showers, tea, and two shots are all that stand between us and the highway to the IVF clinic.

I'm still spotting from the retrival, which makes me nervous. Little bits of brownish tissue. I'm not sure if it's coming from the needle entry points from the ER, or from the uterus itself. I pray it's the former. I will ask Dr. Moustache for something to keep it at bay if it's uterine. I know it will otherwise worry me to go to the bathroom as I'll imagine my embies being wiped away with each trip. I'll also be afraid to cough, to sneeze.

Thank you to everyone that's sent in good wishes for today. I won't feel so alone in that OR knowing you guys are thinking of us. I'll try to post something later on before my 24 hours of mandated bedrest.