Good News, Bad News
Good News:
I have lost 13 pounds since the end of January. Nearly 1 stone for you UK folks (thanks for the correction Pamplemousse!). It took daily torture sessions on the elliptical trainer and a diet that was as lacking in carbs as I could stand, but at long last I have made it back to the weight I was at last summer.
Bad News:
At our last ultrasound (Thursday) Dr. Russian found a cyst on my RIGHT ovary that measured 17mm. Okay. We knew we had a cyst on my LEFT ovary the previous week: it had gone from 17mm two weeks ago to 11mm a week ago. Progesterone was down to 0.6 and so we anticipated getting the green light to start stims on Friday.
He gave us two options: (1) Test for estrogen and if it was low enough, start stims, watch me like a hawk, and if the cyst started to take over we would cancel the cycle. (2) Put me on full strength lupron (after having been on a microdose Rx for an entire month) for two weeks to see if we could get it to suppress. If not, the cycle would be cancelled.
Being that the first option would waste up the bulk of my GonalF, which will not be replaced by insurance (we are all maxed out) I opted for the second option. I also figured that my uterus, formerly chock full of endo, might actually benefit from the lupron, and I did not want to give that cyst a chance to grow. Either we suppress it or screw it.
So we are in a holding pattern of sorts, and I am descending further into the hell that is lupron. I am certain, at this point, that J is close to killing me and burying me in the backyard. Lupron is evil stuff and let me tell you: doctors do not warn patients enough of how bad it will mess with your psyche.
I have lost 13 pounds since the end of January. Nearly 1 stone for you UK folks (thanks for the correction Pamplemousse!). It took daily torture sessions on the elliptical trainer and a diet that was as lacking in carbs as I could stand, but at long last I have made it back to the weight I was at last summer.
Bad News:
At our last ultrasound (Thursday) Dr. Russian found a cyst on my RIGHT ovary that measured 17mm. Okay. We knew we had a cyst on my LEFT ovary the previous week: it had gone from 17mm two weeks ago to 11mm a week ago. Progesterone was down to 0.6 and so we anticipated getting the green light to start stims on Friday.
He gave us two options: (1) Test for estrogen and if it was low enough, start stims, watch me like a hawk, and if the cyst started to take over we would cancel the cycle. (2) Put me on full strength lupron (after having been on a microdose Rx for an entire month) for two weeks to see if we could get it to suppress. If not, the cycle would be cancelled.
Being that the first option would waste up the bulk of my GonalF, which will not be replaced by insurance (we are all maxed out) I opted for the second option. I also figured that my uterus, formerly chock full of endo, might actually benefit from the lupron, and I did not want to give that cyst a chance to grow. Either we suppress it or screw it.
So we are in a holding pattern of sorts, and I am descending further into the hell that is lupron. I am certain, at this point, that J is close to killing me and burying me in the backyard. Lupron is evil stuff and let me tell you: doctors do not warn patients enough of how bad it will mess with your psyche.
Labels: IVF3 Take 1, The Hell that IVF Is
posted by linda at 12:53 PM
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millie said ... (5:18 PM) :
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tonya said ... (2:06 AM) :
post a commentCongrats on the weight loss. I'm very sorry to hear about how frustrating your cycle is. Would you like some company in lupron hell? I'm headed there myself very soon.
I think I have one cartridge of drugs left btw.
Sorry, Linda! 13 pounds is one pound shy of one stone but I am just being pedantic. That is a fabulous amount to lose anyway. Go you! Sucks about the cysts though.
Sorry to hear about the cysts, this is really getting frustrating isn't it? The weight loss is very impressive, well done.
And here I didn't think you had any weight to lose from when I last saw you. Way to go, lady! :)
I'm still rooting for you in this cycle. It sucks that you're dealing with the cysts.... I hope they give up and that things turn around soon. Will be watching to see how you're doing.