Night Before Retrieval, Take 7

I don't know what possessed me to accept a meeting invite for 9am tomorrow. My meeting is slated to go from 9 to 9:30 and I have to be at the clinic at 10:30. I think I'll take the call while I am on foot to the train and then leave the meeting a hair early.

So we've got 4 follicles. They typically grow, what...2mm a day? It'll be interesting to see if there is a difference since we added in 450iu Gonal-F to my hCG trigger.

Anyways...I'm well into the 36 hour long white knuckle ride. I actually find this to be the most stressful part of the entire IVF cycle. I panic thinking:

"What if I oversleep?"

"What if the trains all go down?"

"What if my follicles pop prematurely?"

"Did I trigger with the right vial?"

The list of self doubt is endless and at some point I just have to yell at myself (inside) to stop the madness.

I'm still worried about the trains though.