Committed to the Next Step
The tickets for SF have been bought and I am flying out the crack of dawn on Sunday morning. That's less than 48 hours away. Oy.
Surgery's not until Wednesday morning but I'm going early so that I can work out of my company's Bay Area location for two days. I can't afford to take time off from my new job - I simply haven't accrued enough vacation time to be gone long. So I'll work remotely Monday, Tuesday....pre-op on Tuesday...surgery on Wednesday (I'll take this as a sick day - that seems legit to me)...work remotely on Thursday, Friday...post-op on Friday and I'll be flying home on a red eye on Friday night.
A whirlwind surgery trip in a way. It feels like seeing Dr. Persian has been long overdue. I seriously hope that this surgery works.
On the personal front, me and the other half are in Montreal this week visiting his daughter for her 30th birthday. She has a 3 year old (his granddaughter) and he has his two sons of his own (they're 4 and 6). I'm surrounded by children right now and I kind of reached my breaking point about an hour ago and I retreated for the quiet of our room while they all swam in the hotel's indoor pool.
He looked at me in a sorta puzzled way when I told him "I need a break". I know he was thinking, "Yeah, I do too!" but he wasn't thinking that being around kids 24/7 for days on end starts to get to me at some point. It's as if he remembers that I'm IF for a second...then he forgets. It's weird how short term his memory is of my being IF. I hate to remind him...it makes me feel like I'm complaining, or looking for sympathy, when really all I want is to be left alone in the room right now.
We're driving home tomorrow...have to take his boys to their mom's house in Philadelphia (talk about one helluva drive) and then back home to NYC....pack...and then out the door 4:30ish to catch my 7AM flight. I'm going to feel like dogcrap by the time I board the plane but, on the bright side, I can look forward to six or so hours of uninterrupted "me time".
Surgery's not until Wednesday morning but I'm going early so that I can work out of my company's Bay Area location for two days. I can't afford to take time off from my new job - I simply haven't accrued enough vacation time to be gone long. So I'll work remotely Monday, Tuesday....pre-op on Tuesday...surgery on Wednesday (I'll take this as a sick day - that seems legit to me)...work remotely on Thursday, Friday...post-op on Friday and I'll be flying home on a red eye on Friday night.
A whirlwind surgery trip in a way. It feels like seeing Dr. Persian has been long overdue. I seriously hope that this surgery works.
On the personal front, me and the other half are in Montreal this week visiting his daughter for her 30th birthday. She has a 3 year old (his granddaughter) and he has his two sons of his own (they're 4 and 6). I'm surrounded by children right now and I kind of reached my breaking point about an hour ago and I retreated for the quiet of our room while they all swam in the hotel's indoor pool.
He looked at me in a sorta puzzled way when I told him "I need a break". I know he was thinking, "Yeah, I do too!" but he wasn't thinking that being around kids 24/7 for days on end starts to get to me at some point. It's as if he remembers that I'm IF for a second...then he forgets. It's weird how short term his memory is of my being IF. I hate to remind him...it makes me feel like I'm complaining, or looking for sympathy, when really all I want is to be left alone in the room right now.
We're driving home tomorrow...have to take his boys to their mom's house in Philadelphia (talk about one helluva drive) and then back home to NYC....pack...and then out the door 4:30ish to catch my 7AM flight. I'm going to feel like dogcrap by the time I board the plane but, on the bright side, I can look forward to six or so hours of uninterrupted "me time".
Labels: Montreal, Pelvic Surgery, The Hell that IVF Is
posted by linda at 7:31 PM
Comments on "Committed to the Next Step"
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Mad Hatter said ... (8:24 PM) :
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Adele said ... (10:37 AM) :
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musicmakermomma said ... (4:02 PM) :
post a commentGlad you're taking some time for you in the room and that you'll get some on the plane. I know what you mean about having a partner who has already had kids - they'll never get it completely, I don't think.
Sounds like you have one crazy week ahead of you...I hope that you can enjoy some of the trip on your own in a different city, and that the surgery goes very well.
Thinking of you.
Love,
Maddy
Sometimes, holing up in a room alone is really the best thing you can do for your sanity. And I think you're beyond justified in doing it. Sounds like a hectic time but I am crossing fingers for your trip and, especially, for your surgery. Just make sure that you DO get some down time to take care of yourself before it.
Thinking of you through all the crap - hope everything goes smoothly and you are able to work remotely (take more sick leave if you need it!)
Good luck!
jill