Stims Day 2 Scale Success!

Tried to work out at the gym yesterday and I found myself exhausted much earlier than normal. I think eating a carbohydrate laden fruit/nut bar (a chocolate/coconut Larabar) before a workout was a total mistake. Rather than burning fat, my body was focused on digesting and after burning 300 calories I was winded and I quit. I can't blame my lack of performance on the single dose of Gonal F I shot up right before heading there as it is just too early for it to have had any effect on my ability to do cardio. I truly wish that someone would make a whey protein bar that is otherwise dairy free (no casein, caseinates, or the like) that didn't have a shitload of sugar in it, natural or otherwise. I just don't see them out there. It's so repulsive, to me, to eat a protein bar, in essence a meal replacement, only to have it coated with chocolate, or have 18g of sugar (or more!). I totally adore some of the nut bars that have come onto the market lately, but honestly, they really don't have much in the way of protein and they still have way too much sugar in them. J says I should go into business and make my own. Not sure where he thinks I'll find the time between IVF, classes, buying and rehabbing foreclosures, and everything else on my plate.

My digital scale says I've lost another 1.5 pounds today! Down 15.5 pounds total. Do I dare to trust it? Yeah, why not. I've finally figured out I have to place it in exactly the same position each morning, and then recalibrate it a few times before stepping on. I am totally wow'ed by my efforts. 15.5 pounds is a smidge over 3 of those 5 pound bags of flour you get at the market. That's a frigging lot of weight that I gained Put three of those in your hand basket at the market and walk around for a while. No wonder my lower back pain has been so bad in the last year. I got the "wake up call" to lose weight in late December when I hopped on the scale at the doc's office. My BMI was "right" at 25 and just about every IF knows what that signifies. Today my BMI is at 22.7. Just about right in the middle. I always wonder if when we're all looking at those BMI charts that the RE gives us if we're supposed to be in the middle? Or towards the lower end? I don't think I could ever have a BMI of 21, or 20. But if someone told me it would double my chances at conceiving I'd lose the weight in a heartbeat.

We do tend to eat really healthy food, mostly organic, here at home, so it wasn't the sorts of foods I was eating but, rather, the lack of movement. J is also a carb nut. He loves pasta, bread, tortilla chips. Dr. G was right on the money. The last month or so I've stopped making anything with starches or laden with carbs in the evening. If mom and J want rice, they'll have to make it themselves.

This tactic has worked wonders, so far. The entire pantheon of gods, if they're up there, will probably knock me up this cycle just because I lost weight and it would be oh so entertaining to watch me gain it all back with a big belly to boot.

I've tried to keep my weight loss to around 2 pounds or a bit less per week. Apparently this is a "safe" rate at which to lose. I wonder what they mean when they say "safe". Hopefully my pre-antral follicles have slept quietly through the cardio and the high protein diet and won't be affected by any of this. I've also been wondering if all of the hour long cardio sessions in the gym might help to get extra blood to my ovaries? I do femoral massage but it just doesn't seem like it can do much for long periods of time.

I'm also going in for an endermologie session on Sunday. Girls, if you have never done endermologie you have GOT to try it. It's a fancy machine assisted lymphatic massage that was developed by a doctor for breaking up scar tissue on burn victims (I think he created this for himself, I could be wrong) but it was found that it has all sorts of other great side effects: lymphatic circulation, toxin release, skin becomes moister, more elastic, increased collagen growth, reduction in cellulite, it helps with the pain from fibromyalgia & arthritis, and so much more. You slip into a sheer white stocking, for privacy and so that the machine stays clean, and they rub vacuum assisted rollers over your body in various directions. I've done massage here and there for years and let me tell you that this is by far more intense than any massage I have had.

I did acupuncture in the last 3 cycles and this time I'm just going to do endermologie instead. It's guaranteed to stimulate the hell out of any meridian point on your body and it is so much more relaxing that having someone jam needles into your body.